Yesterday marked 7 months since our Maddie left us to be a angel. I can't say it has gotten any easier. It still hurts just as much as it did the day we found out. James and I always talk about her and I think that really helps. I used to cry when I talk about her, now I do a lot more smiling.
7 months seems like such a long time to live without the one thing that made me whole. But, the truth is she is still living but through me, her daddy, any everyone who met her, and even anyone who just read about her. She is still living!!
As the days draw closer to her 1st birthday I am getting more and more upset. I will say this until the day I die...It's just not fair!! I should be planning a HUGE elaborate pink party, but instead I am ordering balloons to release in her honor. How am I supposed to make it through this.. Its going to be so hard!!!
We love you Maddiebug. Keep on living.. Through me, daddy and everyone. Keep on shining bright!!!!
11 comments:
Kellie Kellie Kellie,Maddie is one of the brightest stars in the night sky,shinning your way,day time too.There's no one day i don't think about her and ask myself how did i got so lucky to still have my babies with me when no everyone can say the same thing,God doesn't give you more than you can handle and you are many of us hero,not that you asked for it,but i think God pick u,James and Maddie to make others want to be better people,to be thankful for the things we take for granted everyday.We all know is not fair one little bit that now you have to live without her,and wondering how it would be but Keep being strong for Maddiebug and her future siblings,they need you.
-melissa
Ps:What happend to your photography? it was going so good...
You two are so strong and amazing. The fact that you have shared your experience all these months is a testimony to your strength. She IS alive in each of your stories. Thank you for sharing her life.
Kellie I'm SO sorry! You'll make it through because you're strong and getting stronger. I'm praying for you and I hope it brings some comfort to know that Maddie will never be forgotten, even by those who never knew her.
I read your blog often, and my heart breaks for your family. I could not find your e-mail, but I wanted to offer to send you my book. I am no one special, just a mom whose daughter went to be with Jesus, and I was not ready. I used my pain and hurt and what I went through to write. I took what I wrote and gave it back to Christ. I pray through my book others can see that they are not alone on this journey. I would love to send you a copy. E-mail me at: stillinmyarms@gmail.com and just let me know where to send it.
To read a re-cap about the book you can go to my blog.... The book is called, Still in my arms. Praying for you today!
If they could, I'm sure the stars would glow pink for your Maddie :( Thinking of you...
You'll see your baby again. She will be there when you join her and you can hold her forever.
Not much I can say but, I'm thinking of you guys. I will pray for your continued healing.
Stay strong. You'll get through the "firsts". That's what I called them the first day, week, month, year, x-mas, mother's day, etc. after my angel went to heaven. You will have good days and bad days...but as time goes on (sometimes a little too slowly), it does get better. I know how it feels like its not fair. The best thing you can do is keep Maddie alive in your memories and to talk about her. It really does help. Keeping you in my prayers. XOXO
We're now 14 months out... I think I've learned the anticipation of big events like Birthdays and Holidays are much worse than the actual event. I usually get really worked up, and then the day doesn't go as bad as I thought it would. Though it's still hard. Hang in there! You're one strong mama :)
Kellie,
I need your email! I wanted to share with you that when I blogged about Maddie, it had 87 hits! That is more than my blog has ever had! I am so glad I got to remember you precious Maddie! She is a doll! I love looking at the different pics you post! What a beautiful angel she is!
Stephani
www.rogersfamilytrio.blogspot.com
It made me really happy to hear that your are now smiling when you talk about her. I am so glad you are healing. That is what Maddie would want for her mommy!
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