Pumpkin Patch 2013

Jackson had a blast at the pumpkin patch this year. He was SO happy that he could walk around and see all the pumpkins! I will remember this year forever!

 Do you see Maddie in this picture??? I DO!!!

Today's the day

Today's the last day of our Scentsy party! 

Head on over to our Scentsy party and getting your Christmas shopping on. Don't forget to order under "Another Day Stronger" blog party!!

Did you know you can customize your own warmer? You can send in an image and they will put it on a warmer for you! Now that is COOL!!!

I REALLY want one of these!!

Pinterest Project

I LOVE Jackson's art work. I mean LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!! I get so excited to get it on Friday's from MDO.

I wanted to make a speical spot just for his artwork.

So, Pinterest here I come!

I found an awesome pin, so off I went to find some cheap (super cheap frames).

I painted them,bought some 3M strips, and clips.....and....
 

I have to say it's not perfect but i LOVE it! I have been waiting years to hang my kids artwork!



Don't forgot to head on over to our Scentsy blog party! There is a BIG 75% off sale today!!! (ONLY TODAY) go check it out!!
(Don't forget to place your order under our blog party-Another Day Stronger)

It's time to start Christmas shopping!

Ok Y'all belive it or not it's time to start Christmas shopping!

I wanted to host a few parties on line to help you get started!

I LOVE Scentsy and its a makes great gifts!

We have a on-line party that starts today and ends next Sunday, October 27th.

Another angel mommy, Tasha is  your Scentsy consultant. 

Here are a few words from her...I am here to help you out with anything from orders to warmers and scents! I have been using scentsy for well over a year for a few different reasons... 1.) The smells and warmers are simply AH-MAY-ZING! 2.) With 2 small children in my house they are far safer then a candle, even the wax is safer. My 1 year old son has split the melted wax on himself and was not burnt or hurt. 3.) The clean up is super easy! 4.) They last way longer then a candle When your making an order dont forget to check the bundles that is how you will save the most money and get all you want! 3 pack of scents, 6 pack of scents, 1 warmer +3-6 scents, the list goes on and dont forget the Scent Buddies HAPPY SHOPPING!

Here is the link to our party, "Another Day Stronger Party" 

Make sure when you order that you are ordering under our party! 

I wanted to show you what is on my list!

I LOVE these warmer with the wraps. You can take the outside wire part off and change them out!!! HOW COOL??? 

I need  this birdcage wrap (like yesterday). My mom and I have been eyeing it for months!

I also LOVE this warmer....

Oh, I LOVE this one to!!!!

 Get to shopping ladies. Christmas will be here before you know it!!! (Please make sure you shop under our party-Another Day Stronger)

My heart is happy

Last Saturday I got the news that a family members baby started walking. This baby is 4.5 months younger then Jackson. It made me sad. I thought to myself, "Jackson is never going to walk". That night he proved me wrong and started cruising.

That was the night before Maddie's birthday. I am so glad God knows exactly when we need those little reminders from him. He reminded me I needed to trust in him. 

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

He knew Jackson was going to walk and he knew just when he wanted Jackson to start walking. It was at the perfect time. James and I were both home and we both got to watch. It was perfect! 

Jackson has been cruising more and more each day. He is going to be fully walking soon. 

Last night he walked all the way to our mailbox in hand with his daddy. I was snapping pictures as they walked.

This is one of my favorite pictures yet. This pictures makes me so happy!!! 

Trying.

I keep trying to sit down and write a post about what we did on Maddie's birthday but each time I start crying.

I cant seem to make myself do it.

It was hard this year...like really hard.

Maybe one day in a few weeks I can find the strength to post about it. Right now I just don't have it.

So hang tight. It's coming. One of these days.

October 15

Today is Babyloss Remembrance Day 

Please take a minute to remember all the babies that left this world way to soon.

Please take a minute and say a prayer for all the moms and dads who's arms are empty today. 

I hope they speak out. It's time to break the silence about babyloss.

Happy Birthday Maddie

Three years ago today God sent us an angel. She was the prettiest little thing we had ever seen. She was perfect....stunning really. Everyone always told us she was gorgeous and I must say-she was!!  4 short months went very fast and her father called her back home. You never know how long God will allow us to take care of his children. Sometimes it's WAY shorter then we want. People always dream of angels, we held one in our arms!!

Its hard to believe or even comprehend that the children we are raising are not indeed ours. They are all God's children. We do not get to decide when it is "their time". If it were our choice I am sure they would always live longer then their parents. So I try and live everyday to the fullest.

We miss our Maddiegirl so much. It's days like today, her birthday, that are the hardest. But we are trying to rejoice in knowing we will once again all be together one day. 

I have to share what happened last night...

It was late and way past Jackson's bed time. He was being good so we let him stay up just this one night. We have been working so hard on getting him to walk. James was trying to get Jackson to walk to his feet. Jackson did it. He let go and walked about 5 steps. 

After that it was over....He was playing on the floor...He got up and just started walking!!!!!!

He did it over and over and over again. He walked all the way across the living room many times! 

We know this was Maddie! We know it was her showing Jackson how to walk just when we needed something to be happy about and boy were we! Sorry for all the screaming and yelling. 

Happy Heavenly Birthday my Princess Maddie. I hope you are dancing on the clouds in Heaven. We love you so much. We can not wait until we are all together again!!

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is one of the two days that I dread all year.

Tomorrow my baby girl should be 3 years old, but she will forever be 4 months.

Tomorrow should be smiles, laughter, and fun. Not in this house- There will be tears, sad faces and sorrow.

I try to make her birthday fun. We try to do fun things. On the exterior we may smile but inside we are breaking.

This year I feel it's been harder then the past. Jackson is in his terrible twos, at 17 months old, and I am miserably swallowed up in grief. Today we planned on going to the zoo to celebrate our daughter but its raining. Not just sprinkling..no...it's pouring! We planned to take Jackson to the pumpkin patch tomorrow to try and have some fun but its going to be way to soggy to go. Nothing is going right. I just want to lay in bed and cry on this gloomy day.

It's coming

It's coming and its coming fast! 

Maddie's birthday is in 3 days.

Iv'e been trying to make it into a fun day but yesterday it hit me like a ton of bricks. I should have a three year old. 

I never knew what 3 year olds could do until I started working at a Pre-School and now I know. 

I know that hasn't made it any easier. She should be talking, running, jumping, playing dress up and princesses, and maybe she is.....I just do not know. 

I keep telling myself Maddie is in paradise. She is so happy, but that doesn't seem to help a broken heart. 

I am a mom. I am selfish. I just want my baby back. 

It's so hard missing EVERY milestone....sitting up, eating solids, crawling, walking, running, singing....EVERYTHING!!!!

Why? Why us? Why our family? 

I have so many Why's and what if's. 

I had been doing SO good SO, SO, SO, SO good until this month. October and February are so so so hard. 

I don't think I will every stop wondering and asking why until we meet again and God tells me why. 

I know he has a reason. I just want to hear it now! Would that even help? Who knows?

Maybe I would feel better if I could see a glimpse into Heaven just to know she is ok and happy. 

I keep looking at her pictures wishing I had more. I have tons dont get me wrong. I just want more..more pictures of her growing up.What does she look like now? I want to see her perfect three year old face. 

I'm afraid I'm back on the grief roller coaster and I cant get off. 

17 months

Jackson,

You are 17 months old!
You weigh 26 pounds 12.5 ounces
You wear size 5 diapers and 18-24 month clothes. The other day it was cool so I tried some jeans on you and they were to short. I'm afraid you may have mommy's long legs!
You are such a sweet boy and you still LOVE your mommy. When I drop you off at school you still cry but only for a little but. You just don't like me to leave you!
Guess what else? You can walk holding on to only 1 finger of mine. You can't go very far but this is an amazing improvement! You will be walking before Christmas I know it!
You are talking up the storm! Most of the time is just jabber, but you do love to say dada. You talk VERY loud. You do know a lot of words: car, ball, up, down, no, milk, mama, dada, ish, dog, more ( I will keep adding to the list when I can remember more)
I am afraid you have picked up some not so great habits at school like screaming at the top of your lungs if you want something. We are working on this but it's been hard. Luckily you do not do it all the time!
You make car noises now when you play with cars and its SOOOOO cute!
You are finally napping better!!! Sometimes you will nap for over an hour. I am sure your teachers are thankful for this!
You LOVE: Your Mimi, Ish (the dog), Daddy, Mommy, cars, throwing things, eating, walking outside, swinging, singing, and dancing.

I love you so much Jackson! You are my Hope and reason for going on.
XOXO,
Mommy