Last summer I was pregnant and dreaming about the following summer when I could take Maddie to the pool. I dreamed she would be splashing around with her cute two piece swim suit all greased up with sun screen.
Well, unfortunately it's still a dream.
Yesterday James and I went to the pool with family. I was nervous. I wanted to be there with Maddie. I was happy having a great time until I see a baby about the same age Maddie should be splashing around..then I got sad. This just isn't fair!
I have actually been in great spirits ever since I got back from my Chicago conference. So, I thought to myself , "don't let this get you down". Think about how pretty Maddie is right now with her beautiful angel wings. ..then I felt better.
I feel like I have taken 5 giant steps forward. Me Ra's confidence workshop really really made me feel better. I am so grateful to have had that opportunity!
I know in the back of my head my 2 steps back are trying to sneak up on me, but I'm really trying to not let them!!! Maddie's 8 month birthday is approaching. The date when she will be in heaven longer then she was with us is also coming. Those 2 days will be hard...very hard.. But I can make it through..
So, on a happy note check out this really cool picture I took in Chicago.
