But, being a mom of an angel makes me a little crazy.
I know every mom is a little nervous when you leave your baby. But, me being an angel mom and everything we have been through..well I am SUPER crazy!! Every time I leave Jackson no matter if I am in the same place (like in another room) or I leave him with James to run a quick errand. I am so anxious.
Today I ran the grocery store to grab some stuff for lunch. I left Jackson at home asleep with James. I know James is very capable of taking care of him. He is an amazing dad, but the anxiety I felt while I was gone was crazy. I ran through the store like a crazy woman throwing stuff in my basket getting mad at people who were in my way. Driving home crazy to get back home to a baby still sleeping just where I left him.
Who does this?
Me, the crazy mom of an angel baby.
Anxiety. I know its normal. I felt anxious when we had Maddie but multiply that anxiety by a million and that's how I feel now.
James and I want to go do something for our anniversary but that means I will have to leave Jackson with my mom. I know she is 100% capable of taking care of him. She raised me.... I am fine. We are practically together everyday. She knows CPR. She was in the class with us. She can work his monitor (except for in Panera..thats another story..ha ha). But, the anxiety I feel right now just thinking about leaving him makes me cringe.
I am sure I will get over this. It's probably because everything is still brand new.
(Please don't think I'm crazy. I'm fine...just a new mom ((again)).
