Showing posts with label Jackson. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Jackson. Show all posts

Friday, May 25, 2012

I'm here

I'm here.
Were here.
I'm just tired.

Jackson and I are trying really hard to figure this breastfeeding thing out. We are both new at it, so its very time consuming. So, I'm tired.

I tell myself everyday I need to go blog, but I'm usually nursing..like all day. One day Jackson and I will get into a better schedule then I will be able to blog more often. So please keep coming back and checking on us.  I promise I am not going to stop blogging.

Yesterday I took Jackson to the doctor for his 2 week check up. He is still not back to his birth weight but he is gaining! He weighs 7 pounds 11 ounces. The doctor said he looks great, and I agree. Look at this cutie..





Sunday, May 20, 2012

Time to spill the beans...

Tomorrow I start a new adventure in my life. Ok so I'm starting MANY new adventures in my life, but, tomorrow is a BIG one.

I have said it from the minute Maddie left us..

If we have another baby I WILL stay home...

So tomorrow is my first day of the most important job a woman can do...

be a stay at home mom.

I resigned last week. It made me sad. I loved my job. I love teaching and I love kids, but being home with Jackson is the most important thing I could do.

I do plan on going back when Jackson is 18 and we finally take his monitor off (kidding).


I am excited for this new adventure. It's going to be many happy days with this little guy..


( newborn pictures to come soon)

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Newborn pictures

I am in love with these pictures. We can not decide which one we like the best. 

Here he is just 1 day old! 





 "After every storm there is a rainbow of Hope... Here I am"

 Jackson laying on his "Maddie blanket"

 This is Jackson's "Maddie pose". We have a picture like this with James and Maddie so we wanted one with her brother and daddy. 

 Pure love




Monday, May 14, 2012

My sweetie


Here are some pictures of my sweetie. I am working hard on getting my birth story together, but this mom has to sleep when I can :)

Thank you all for the sweet comments. Jackson and I are doing GREAT! He is such a clam relaxed baby. He only cries when he needs a diaper change or he is really hungry. 

We are all adjusting well. Maddie is here with us. We can all feel her. She is truly his guardian angel.
 Jackson hanging out by the "Maddie tree"

 Jackson wearing his onesie for his big sister

 Mimi and Mr. J

 Jackson snuggling Mommy

Just hanging out with  his "daddy hair"

We are SO happy!!!!!

Sunday, May 13, 2012

He's here!!!!

                                                               Our Hope is here!!!


Jackson was born on May 9th at 9:41am weighing 7 pounds 15 oz. 21.5 inches long.


He is perfect in every way.

We are so happy and things are going just perfect!!!!!!!


I will post my birth story soon.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Tomorrow is the big day!!!

 I cant believe I will be holding our miracle in my arms tomorrow!! 

My doctors appointment went great today! Jackson is still head down, face down. He was just hanging out sucking on his fingers. He doesn't even know what is going to happen tomorrow!

I am 4 cm dilated and 75% effaced. My doctor said tomorrow is going to go fast!! 

We have to be at the hospital at 5 am so he may be here before lunch?

I have waited 38 weeks for this "Hope". I am scared, happy, excited, fearful and probably about every emotion you can think of right now. I really don't know what to do with my self.

I can feel Maddie close to us today. She is holding my hand skipping and "I'm going to be a big sister!". She will be be very much a part of the whole process tomorrow. I know tomorrow when I hold Jackson for the first time I will be holding a little part of her too. Its going to be such a special moment.

I am now off my blood thinners so please pray my blood does not clot. It could possibly be a very dangerous time for Jackson and I so prayers are very much appreciated. 

EKKKK tomorrow is the day!!!

Monday, May 7, 2012

2 more days

So I'm not sure what I am doing with my arm in my sleeve. HA! We are both such nerds! Enjoy.

ONLY 2 more days till he's here!!!( ok today is almost over.....so 1 more day!)


Friday, May 4, 2012

5 more days!!

Only 5 more days!!!!!

 I am trying to hardest to keep these next 5 days full, so I am not just sitting twirling my thumbs. Guess who showed up????
Helllllllo nesting. 

I am not sure why you took so long to get here , but WOW you are here in full force.

I have officially cleaned and cleaned and cleaned. I don't think our house has been this clean in a LONG time.

I still have more to do,  but I can only do a little at a time before I exhaust myself. 



So how about this CRAZY super moon this weekend?
I have had many people send me fb messages telling me that full moon's make pregnant ladies deliver! CRAZY! Who has heard this? I guess we will see tomorrow if its true.

Tomorrow James and I are going on our (for real) last date as parents of 1 (that's if the moon doesn't get to me..haha). James asked me what I wanted to do. I told him I wanted to go eat dessert!!! Sounds perfect to me! He may need to bring a BIG wallet. I will probably want to eat everything! 

I think James and I are going to do a video blog this weekend.. We have a little surprise for you. We can also show you Jackson's nursery.  You remember the one he probably will not sleep in until hes like 3 (just kidding..Don't freak out).

Have a great weekend!






Tuesday, May 1, 2012

The big day


I went to the doctor today and didn't have any change. I am still 2 cm and Jackson is baking away. 


Guess who is the cutest baby boy ever?

JACKSON!!

Just look at that face!

We will be singing Happy Birthday loud and clear to our "Hope" next Wednesday May 9th! We simply can NOT wait!!!!!!

Monday, April 30, 2012

We did it!!!

We did it!!!!

Jackson and I made it to 37 weeks.. I am now considered FULL TERM!!!

Dr's visit tomorrow.. EKKKKK. I'm SO EXCITED!!!

Sunday, April 29, 2012

The most special gift...

I am SO excited to share this. Beth (our amazing photographer- Did I mention she is SO talented!?!?) finished Jackson's blanket made from Maddie's clothes.  Friday I went and picked it up. I just LOVE it! It's so special.  I have to admit I have been sleeping with it. I am keeping it safe for him until he is here.  :)

I will forever be thankful that Beth did such a special thing for our family. Please go visit her Etsy shop: Love, September here. 



Well, I am still pregnant. Jackson is still baking away. Friday I was having contractions every 3 minutes for over an hour. I really thought it was time. I was so excited. I picked up the house (while contracting) and started to REALLY make sure we had everything. But, then they just stopped. So, It was a BIG false alarm. 


Tuesday is my next doctors appointment. She and I will discuss induction based on what we both feel comfortable with.Soon we will have Mr. Jackson in our arms!

Thursday, April 26, 2012

What am I doing?

Ever since my doctor muttered the words "I dont think you will make it to next week" I have been scared....no...

SCARED

TO

DEATH

Scared that I will not be able to have an epidural (again).

You see after going through natural child birth you are kinda...um.... traumatized. I didn't get to have an epidural with Maddie because of my blood thinner shot. One of my goals this time was to make it to my induction date so I could have an epidural and enjoy Jackson's birth. I have centered everything on this the past few weeks months. But why? I'm not in control God is. He knows what he is doing. Maddie is watching over me and Jackson. I have a guardian angel, so why should I be scared? I need to let go and enjoy these last few minutes of silence because I will not hear it again for a very long time (I hope and pray).

So, today I am letting go.

It's about time right?  It's easier said then done, but I'm going to do it.. I will not let this FEAR consume me. 


Today and from now on I am going to let "HOPE" shine.






Wednesday, April 25, 2012

He's almost here

My doctors appointment went well. 

Jackson looked great on the ultrasound and I only had 1 small contraction on the NST.

My doctor checked me and I am 3cm dilated and 50%effaced. She doesn't think I will make it to next week, but if I do we will set up induction for sometime next week! I honestly was shocked when she told me I was 3cm. I didnt think I had progressed any but, I was wrong!

I am scared. I am still on my blood thinner and I'd really like to be off it  before he comes. All I can do is pray now.

Jackson could be here any day now. Our HOPE is on his way!!!

If anything happens I will update my twitter account (top right hand column) or you can follow me here. 

(I know I have a few readers who are L and D nurses. If I have taken my Heparin and I go into labor can they give me something to counteract it so I can get an epidural? I HOPE so. ) 

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

I must not be to fat

Thank you all for the suggestions about my reflux. Thankfully last night it went away and I got to sleep. I slept great and only got up once to potty!

Today I headed to the grocery store to buy weekly groceries and supplies to stock up my freezer  with quick meals. I was going up and down the isles with my huge list ( and huge belly)  when this fire fighter starts hitting on me! I dunno which way I should take that..but I guess I'm not THAT fat at 9 months pregnant! HA

I am so excited about my dr's appointment tomorrow. I cant wait to see Jackson on  ultrasound again and hear how much he weighs AND not to mention pick his birthday!!!

Here are a few things I am cooking up to freeze:

Baked Ziti
Ingredients:
1 lb. whole milk or 1% cottage cheese
2 large eggs, lightly beaten
3 oz. grated Parmesan cheese (about 1 1/2 cups), divided
Table salt
1 lb. ziti
1 tbsp. extra-virgin olive oil
20 oz. turkey Italian sausage
1/2 cup yellow onion, finely chopped
5 medium cloves garlic, minced or pressed
1 (28 oz.) can tomato sauce
1 (14.5 oz) can diced tomatoes
1 tsp. dried oregano
1/2 cup plus 2 tbsp. chopped fresh basil leaves, divided
1 tsp. sugar
Ground black pepper
3/4 tsp. cornstarch
1 cup heavy cream (or whole milk)
8 oz. low-moisture mozzarella, cut into 1/4-inch pieces
Center a rack in the oven and preheat the oven to 350° F.  Whisk cottage cheese, eggs, and 1 cup Parmesan together in a medium bowl; set aside.  Bring a large pot of water to boil.  Stir in 1 tablespoon salt and the pasta; cook until pasta begins to soften but is not yet cooked through, 5-7 minutes.  Drain the pasta and leave in colander.
Meanwhile, heat olive oil in a skillet over medium heat.  Crumble in the turkey sausage and cook until nearly browned.  Add in the onion and garlic and continue to cook until the onion is softened and the sausage is completely browned.  Stir in the tomato sauce, diced tomatoes and oregano; simmer until thickened, about 10 minutes.  Off the heat, stir in 1/2 cup basil and the sugar, and season with salt and pepper.
In a small bowl stir together the cornstarch and heavy cream.  Transfer the mixture to the now-empty stockpot over medium heat.  Bring to a simmer and cook until thickened, 3-4 minutes.  Remove the pot from the heat and add the cottage cheese mixture, 1 1/2 cups of the tomato sauce and 3/4 cup mozzarella.  Stir to combine.  Add the pasta and toss to coat thoroughly with the sauce.
Transfer the pasta to a 9×13″ baking dish and spread the remaining tomato sauce evenly over the top.  Sprinkle the remaining mozzarella and Parmesan over the top.  Cover the baking dish tightly with foil and bake for 30 minutes.
Remove the foil from the pan and continue to cook until the cheese is bubbling and beginning to brown, about 30 minutes longer.  Cool for 20 minutes.  Sprinkle with the remaining 2 tablespoons basil and serve. 



Chicken Enchiladas

Ingredients

  • 1 medium onion, chopped fine
  • 2 jalapenos, seeded and chopped fine
  • 1 tsp. canola oil
  • 3 cloves garlic, minced
  • 3 tbsp. chili powder
  • 2 tsp. cumin
  • 1 tbsp. sugar
  • 1 (15 oz.) can tomato sauce
  • 1 cup water
  • 1 tomato, seeded and chopped
  •     Salt and pepper
  • 1 lb. boneless, skinless chicken breasts
  • 1 cup shredded sharp white cheddar cheese, divided
  • 1 cup shredded monterey jack cheese, divided
  • ½ cup minced fresh cilantro
  • 12 (6-inch) soft corn tortillas
  • Cooking spray
·    



     Combine the onion, jalapeno and oil in a large saucepan over medium heat. Cook, stirring often, until the onions and peppers have softened, 8-10 minutes. Stir in the garlic, chili powder, cumin and sugar, and cook just until fragrant, less than 30 seconds. Mix in the tomato sauce, water, and chopped tomato. Bring the sauce to a simmer, lower the heat and cook until slightly thickened, about 5 minutes.
·       Nestle the chicken into the sauce. Reduce the heat to low, cover and cook until the chicken is completely cooked through (160˚ F on an instant-read thermometer), about 12-20 minutes. Transfer the chicken to a plate and set aside to cool.
·       Strain the sauce through a large mesh strainer into a medium bowl, pressing down on the onions and tomatoes to extract as much liquid as possible. Transfer the reserved solids to a large bowl and set aside. Season the sauce with additional salt and pepper to taste.
·       Shred the chicken into bite size pieces and add to the bowl with the onion mixture. Add in ¼ cup of the enchilada sauce, ½ cup of each of the shredded cheeses, and the cilantro. Stir to combine.
·       Preheat the oven to 425˚ F. Oil a 9 x 13″ baking dish with cooking spray. Stack the tortillas on a plate, cover with plastic wrap, and microwave for 40-60 seconds, until warm and pliable. Spoon 1/3 cup of the chicken mixture evenly down the center of a tortilla. Roll up the tortilla around the filling tightly, and place in the prepared baking dish, seam-side down. Repeat with the remaining filling and tortillas.
·       Lightly spray the tops of the enchiladas with cooking spray. Place in the oven, uncovered, for 7 minutes or until the tortillas start to brown slightly.
·       Reduce the oven temperature to 400˚ F. Remove the enchiladas from the oven and pour the sauce oven the top. Sprinkle with the remaining shredded cheese. Cover the dish with foil and bake for 20 minutes.
·       Remove the foil and bake for 5 more minutes, until the cheese is browned. Remove from the oven and let stand 10 minutes before serving.



Monday, April 23, 2012

36 weeks

I made it to 36 weeks!!! Maddie was born this week (at 36 weeks). James and I are beyond thrilled, excited and NERVOUS!!

Wednesday is my doctors appointment this week. I have another NST, ultra sound and visit with my dr. This week I get to schedule my induction date. How exciting!!

Last night was a long night.. I have suffered with acid reflux this whole pregnancy but last night it was BAD! I couldn't sleep at all. I probably slept maybe 3 hours at the most. I took a Zantac and many many Tums. But, nothing was working. This morning after a nap I got up thinking I was better. I actually felt pretty good. Little did I know after lunch it would all come back. After eating only a little bit I felt like I was going to explode and the acid reflux came back. I have been in bed ever since. I guess Jackson is just getting so BIG its really shrunk my stomach. I dunno but I still don't feel good and I'm scared to eat much.

Not to much longer till we meet Mr. Hope!!

Friday, April 20, 2012

Guess what??

My 24 hour urine collection came back PERFECT! That is one thing off my back!

Guess what else??

My dr. said I can start easing off bed rest. She told me to take it easy because I am going to be tired. I'm not allowed to go back to work. We are still monitoring my blood pressure and going back to work is stressful. So, I guess I am kinda still on "house arrest" but I'll take it!!!

Today I started really nesting. I cleaned for about 30 minutes and I was exhausted. So I am taking lots of breaks and just taking things slow. James and I are so excited about Jackson's arrival, but now I am kinda starting to freak. Do we really have everything? Is everything safe? How am I going to handle him being here and Maddie not being here? It is going to be a very emotional time. I am sure of that.





Tuesday, April 17, 2012

35 weeks

I made it to 35 weeks!!

Today I had a SUPER long doctors appointment. They did a NST, ultra sound and I saw my dr.

Good News: I am still a fingertip dilated. Doctor said my ultra sound looked good. Jackson is head down and face down. My fluid levels looked good too. They did not take all the measurement for his weight. So I didnt get that BOO!!!

Bad News: I have protein in my urine. I get to do the FUN 24 hour urine collection starting tomorrow morning. Protein in my urine can be the beginning of pre-elclampsia or it could be nothing. We will not know until Thursday afternoon.

I have felt good today. I was up a lot and only had 1 contraction. It felt good to walk around and be out of the house.

I just thought of this today... I am 35 weeks... I had Maddie at 36 weeks. WOW. He could potentially be here any day. I am excited , but so scared.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

I just want to keep him in..

Sorry I haven't updated lately. I have been in a blogging funk. I guess just a funk in its self.

Yesterday I had another scare. I thought we were going to have to go to the hospital. I was contracting every 2 minutes. They were horribly painful contractions too. I tried to stay calm and figure out what may of set them off. I had drank tons of water. I didn't really get up to much. I did go to my moms and lay on her couch. I was just so tired of laying in our bed. You can only stay in 1 place for so long. After about an hour of contracting every 2-5 minutes I decided it was time to call the doctor (not my dr- the on call dr). I told him what was going on. He told me to go on bed rest for the rest of the day. This is exactly why I dont like talking to the on all doctors. I fell like they have no clue what is going on with me. After explaining to him that I was on bed rest and I was "resting" when this happened. He suggested taking some Tylenol and going to bed. He told me I could go in if I wanted to, but he didn't want to waste my time. I was beyond frustrated at this point. I already knew that. So, I just laid and continued timing my contractions. Little by little the time in between them got longer and longer. Finally they stopped. I'm still not sure what brought them on but today I have not left the bed.

Today it hit me.... why am I SO anxious to have Jackson? After I give birth to him I am no longer physically protecting him. I feel like he is so vulnerable after that. I know God already has his life planned, but this feeling of helplessness as a mom that I have will not go away. Of course I will do everything to protect him, but I am going to worry about him 24/7. I will be lucky if I can sleep at all in the next 18ish years. I know that is silly to think , but its the truth. I know I HAVE to sleep and let others take care of him. I know this, but is my mind and body going to let me? I hope so. I am praying that James and I will be able to do this.

Next week is our CPR training for infants. I am nervous. I am not nervous about the training I am nervous to know exactly what EMS did to my Maddie girl. That freaks me out. I pray that I will be able to get through this class without a breakdown. I am so lucky it a private class with just our family. I know I will be supported through the whole thing. I am just scared.

Sorry for being in a funk. I need to get out of it. Feeling better today has helped. I did finish "Catching Fire" today. I was pretty good. I am will start the 3rd book tomorrow. Tuesday is my next dr's appt and I am excited. I get to have an ultra sound, NST and see the dr. I cant wait to see Mr. J on the big screen. Any bets on his weight this time? Its been 2 weeks..Last time he weighed 5 pound 2 ounces.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Jackson Update

Well Jackson is trying to scare his mommy and family.

I started having contractions Sunday. They started around 12. These contractions were different. They were not just cramps and they hurt! I didn't think much about them because my doctor told me I would keep having them. They were not consistent so James and I went on to my moms for Easter lunch. I kept having them the whole time we were there. I was really starting to get uncomfortable.

I really wanted to go see my grandparents so we went over there for a little while. At their house I was still contracting and getting dizzy. We didn't stay long because I was very uncomfortable.

After we got home I drank some water and laid down. After about an hour I was still contracting so I decided to call the dr. I spoke to the on call dr and he said I needed to go to labor and delivery.

James and I drove to the hospital and we were not in the car more then 5 minutes and I HAD to go to the potty. I had to go RIGHT then or I was going to have an accident. So we stopped and I went to the restroom. Not even 5 minutes later I HAD to go again. We were getting closer to the hospital so I decided I would try and hold it. BAD IDEA!! I was contracting and I had to pee. By the time we got there I was thinking I didn't care if I peed in my pants I had to go that bad. I was in so much pain and my contractions were VERY close together. I was convinced I was in labor.

After running into the hospital and finding the restrooms closed I literally though I would pee my self right there. I composed myself and walked the 1/2 mile to the next restroom. I really dont know how I made it.

Finally James and I get to labor and delivery around 8. They hooked me up to the monitors and I was having contractions every 3-4 minutes. Not so fun!!! The nurse did an ffn swab then checked me. She said I was 1 cm and 60% effaced. This was a change since the last time I was checked. So I started freaking out a little. She went to call the dr to ask him what he wanted to do. After what seemed like forever she came back and said I get to have 3 terbutaline and I have to drink 2 big jugs of water. Remember those fun shots from last time this happened?? Well this time the terb shots were not as bad until I got the 3rd one. I started shaking and getting REALLY hot.

The terb shots were not working. The nurse called the dr again and he said to admit me for 24 hours to watch my contractions. I got an IV put in and we were wheeled to a room for our 24 hour stay. I slept a total of 30 minutes Sunday night. I was so concerned about Jackson. I watched the monitors for hours on end. It was really weird. I would have 5-7 contractions right in a row then I wouldn't have any more for a while and the whole process would start over again. My nurse said my white blood count was high and asked me if I had been sick. I said no. That was odd. She said they would re check it again in the morning but I could have an infection. Infection!!! That really made me scared.

By morning time on Monday I had been doing good. No contractions for over an hour. James got up to go to work and just after he left I had 7 in a row. These contractions were still pretty painful. I was offered pain meds, but I didnt want to take them.

My mom came to be with me around 7. I ordered some yummy breakfast and ate. The nurse re drew my blood to check my white blood count. Before I knew it the dr. on call came in to see me. She re checked me and I was still 1 cm. Praise GOD all these contractions were not changing my cerix. The dr. told me my blood count had gone down so they were not worried. Also, I was to be on full bed rest and to see my dr. tomorrow (Tuesday). I was so confused. They were letting me leave but I was still contracting.

So, my mom and I left the hospital and headed home. She stayed with me while I slept until James got home.

Today I went to see my dr. She checked me again and said I was barely 1 cm and NOT 60% effaced. My FFN was negative and she wants me to do weekly ultrasounds and NST's. They also say I am farther along then I thought I was. They are saying I'm 34 weeks and 1 day. I thought I was only 33 weeks and 3 days. So I guess I will go alone with their date! So, as of now the plan is to induce me at 38 weeks. That is just 3 1/2 weeks away!!!

I am beyond excited but still very confused. I am still contracting often but not timeable. I guess I just have to learn to live with it. Some are very painful and some are not.

Please keep praying for Jackson and I .... Let the countdown begin!!!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Love

I have been waiting to post about all this cuteness for a while! Remington's Rad Designs has done it again. They make the CUTEST stuff!!!!


I can't decide if this is going to be Jackson's coming home outfit or not..but I just LOVE this gown and hat.

Lindsey, the owner over at Remington's is so sweet (and her mom). They are both so very patient with me. I designed this onesie because you all know I LOVE to take pictures. But, I must of changed the font colors 15 times before I was happy with it!

I LOVE my boppy cover!!! I got it as a gift from my shower and I decided to send it to Remington's to be monogrammed. Lindsey had never done a boppy cover before and she was very nervous. I dont know why. I LOVE how it turned out!!!

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