I knew it would...Jackson's monitor went off.
James and I were in the living room in the dark waiting for Jackson to go get sleepy. I had just changed him and put him in his sleep sack. I put him back in his rock n play right in front of me ( he doesnt like to be rocked). It was time for me to pump, so I got up and started walking to the kitchen. Then it happened. BEEEEEEEEEP. His alarm went off. Usually its a lose connection or the battery is dying so at the moment I wasn't freaked out. I turned around and glanced at his box..then I saw it.... a big red light on the left. I knew the light on the left was the light to show he was not breathing. So I ran. I ran as fast as I could to him. I picked him up in a panic. He was asleep. He looked like an angel, just like his sister and panic set in. Then it stopped going off. He never woke up. He never cried. FREAKED US OUT!!
James ripped his sleeping sack off and unzipped his pj's. We wanted to watch him breathe. James started playing with the leads. They will show Jackson breathing even if they are not totally on his chest. We took them off him and the machine beeped again. We wanted to see if it could of been a false alarm. As far as we can tell it wasn't. Jackson stopped breathing for over 20 seconds. He started breathing again when I picked him up and called his name. Needless to say this freaked me out!! I didnt sleep well.
We have been ridiculed for having him on a monitor. I have been told it "wasn't right". It really hurt me hearing these comments. Why would anyone tell us that? But you know what??? I dont care. Look what happened last night. Yes, I know SIDS can NOT be prevented. If its going to happen it will..but look what happened last night. Maybe Jackson has apnea. We don't know. What if I wouldn't of ran and picked him up at that moment would he ever start breathing again? Who knows. All I know is that monitor saved him last night. I am thankful for it.
Today I am calling the pediatrician. I am not sure they will want to see him but I think they need to know. I am still scared. So scared.
Please pray. Pray it was just a fluke. Pray for James and I. We are so scared.
