Moving but not moving on

Deciding to move from the house we made all our memories with our sweet girl was one of the hardest decision I could of ever made. But, it was time to go. Jackson is in pre-school, actually next year he will be in Pre-K (can you even believe that?). As a teacher, I am pretty picky as to what school my children go to. I want to best of the best (can you blame me). The school in our old neighborhood wasn't my top pic, so it was time to start looking for new homes. We started looking for homes in the neighborhood I wanted to be in. They were a little over our price point, but not to much. We looked for weeks and on a whim I decided to go to an open house. James was running late and I decided to go to the open house alone. It was nearly time for it to be over so I was going to go in quickly and  go on home. Little did I know I would be there for hours crying with the listing agent bonding over my daughter.
I don't even recall what I was saying. I do remember I was telling the listing agent I had a daughter who passed away from SIDS. As I was speaking she stopped me and said, "Is your daughters name Madison?". Those simple words stopped me right in my tracks. I said, "Yes..." I thought she was going to tell me she was a blog follower, but I was so wrong. Come to find out her son was at the same babysitters house when our sweet Maddie passed away. She sat and told me the whole story of that day from her perspective. It was hard to hear but I wanted to hear it. I needed to know how the babysitter felt, what she did, what the police did, how was everyone acting ......everything that happed that day. We sat and cried together as she told me every detail that she recalled.  I knew from that second this was the right home for us. I always told James I had to have a special feeling a "sign" to know it was ok to move, and there is was bright and clear. Maddie was telling me it was ok.
You know, we had many memories in that home but those memories wont stay there. They are in our heads and in our hearts. Maddie is always with us no matter where we go and what we do.
It didn't make it any easier  when it was time to finally leave our old home for the last time, but it did make it easier. 

It's time to come back

I never knew I would take this much time off of blogging.

I honestly haven't even thought about it. I had a few followers send me a message but other then that it hasn't crossed my mind. I guess having two kids, teaching, and being a wife has my days pretty full.

I feel like you guys do not even know Brooklynn unless you follow me on Instagram, then you do! I only post at least 2 or 3 pictures of her a day. I always get the usual "why do you only post pictures of Brooklynn". Well I do post picture of  Mr. Jackadoo, but I told myself I would post a picture a day of Brooklymm for a whole year. I have greatly reached my goal and gone above and beyond (hey go big or go home right!). But, let me ask you this? Have you ever tried to take a picture of a spunky, opinioned three year old that doesn't love to listen to mommy? Yep, sometimes its not worth the fight! HA

Can you believe my Princess is going to be a year old soon? I have gotten into the party planning mode and I am LOVING IT! I can't believe she is this old. This is crazy!!
Brooklynn is such a good baby. She eats anything (and everything). She is very easy going and loves her mamma. She doesn't like men very much (except for her daddy). We still haven't figured that one out, but if your a man and want to hold her watch out!
I did do things a little differently with Brooklynn eating wise. I am not even sure this helped or if she was just born loving to eat, but like I said..Brooklynn will eat anything. I never gave her baby food! Yes, you read that right. She still to this day has never had any baby food. We did baby lead weaning and she just took off with it and we never looked back. We started with steamed apples and avocados. I know "true" baby lead weaning says you cant spoon feed them, but I spoon fed her avocado. Have you ever tried to pick up an avocado? Yeah, not easy. Brooklynns favorite food is still avocado! I don't even think I had an order of foods after that we just fed her what we were eating and went with it. Of course we stayed away from honey, and eggs. I really do think that has helped her love food.

My Jackson boy is still a picky eater. He eat chicken nuggets, fruit and yogurt. Well junkfood of course but that's about it. He still refuses to try any new food. Jackson is such a smart boy. He knows most of his letter and some of his sounds. He loves to tell you what sounds words start with and also what letters. He loves going to school and enjoys showing everyone his "fast shoes". He cracks us up! His love for trains and anything with wheels is strong. He loves JJ Watt, fast cars and his  4 wheeler. He is defiantly all boy!

Our Maddiegirl has been gone almost  5 years now. It hurts my heart so bad to type those words. Having Brooklynn makes us really wonder what Maddie would be like. I hope soon  can write a blog about it all.

I wanted to tell everyone thank you for sticking with us. Thank you for giving us some time to take off and enjoy our sweet family. Please leave me a comment and tell me you are still here.