A visit with a lot of questions

Today we went and visited Maddiegirl spot. We haven't been in a while. When Jackson asks us where Maddie is we always tell him she is in heaven. He was always ok with that answer until today..  Today his little mind started racing. He asked, "where is heaven", "who is she with", "how do we get there"...When we got to the cemetery he wanted to know if were in heaven yet. Let me just tell you this mamma lost it. I wish so hard we could visit heaven and see our sweet Maddiegirl. It's hard to explain to a three year old what heaven is. He really wanted to see Jesus and say hi to his big sister. I wish I could of explained it to him or I wish I could of even gotten the words out, but I just sat there and cried. I wished I knew the right words to say. I wished I could hold her. I wish we didn't even have to have this conversation. But, we do. This is our story and this is our life. It's going to be like this until we see sweet Maddie again. So tonight I will try and find the right words to say to him. I will try my best to explain heaven to him. I hope I can do heaven justice. We have the book, heaven is for real, and we have read it many times. I guess he never put the two together.

All three of my children in one picture. This is not how I had it pictured it in my mind, but this is out story. Love you sweet Maddie.