Ugh.
It felt like someone stabbed me in my heart.
Christmas time is so hard. Last year it was impossible. Everything reminds me that my Princess is gone...her stocking, our Christmas tree, her reindeer foot print, big glittery poofy dresses.... everything.
Maddie was here for Christmas. It's one of the great memories I have of her. I remember taking one of our first family pictures in front of the Christmas tree with her.
I know this year will be easier. Jackson is here and we will make new memories.
But, for now I will say clear of big poofy Christmas dresses.
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I'm so sorry. I hope you have a great Christmas remembering Maddie and celebrating Jackson.
Oh Kellie, my heart still breaks for you. I am praying that you find peace this Holiday Season, and know that His Grace is there for every situation. You are never alone.
I bet it is hard! I lost my little sister when she was 15 months due to drowning in a pool back in 1991, to this day we still hang her stocking up and every year we have written a little note or colored a picture and put it in the stocking for her. I am now 29 and still do it! It is very full if you can imagine and my mom told me she wants to give me all my letters, I can't imagine not doing this as it has helped keep Moriah involved and close to us at Christmas.... Just an idea :)
Hi! Kellie,
I follow your story & I do not think I have ever made a comment. I totally respect your emotions so by my suggestion I hope not to offend or get you sad but it pop in my head & I truly felt like I had to say it.
Again with all the respect to you, your family & your princess Maddie... I say buy a dress, yes buy a baby poofy dress or one that will fit Maddie & give it to someone in need or a friend you appreciate... Us people I think get pleasure in helping or giving hopefully it will help you feel better & on behalf & Memory or Maddie & yourself you are doing something good for someone. Maybe Start a Tradition & keep pictures of different girls you have done this for & that go along with Maddie's age, yes sounds like a collage.
Again all said with all respect
SAI from CA
Hi! Kellie,
I follow your story & I do not think I have ever made a comment. I totally respect your emotions so by my suggestion I hope not to offend or get you sad but it pop in my head & I truly felt like I had to say it.
Again with all the respect to you, your family & your princess Maddie...
I say buy a dress, yes buy a baby poofy dress or one that will fit Maddie & give it to someone in need or a friend you appreciate... Us people I think get pleasure in helping or giving hopefully it will help you feel better. On behalf Maddie & yourself you are doing something good for someone.
Maybe Start a Tradition & keep pictures of different girls you have done this for & that go along with Maddie's age or all Babies, yes sounds like a collage.
Best wishes for the upcoming season
SAI from CA
Wishing u a happy holiday season.
Wishing u a happy holiday season.
Hugs. She will be celebrating the BEST Christmas, we can only begin to imagine! I am still amazed at how much she & Jackson look alike!
Dear Kelli,
I know excatly how you feel, My baby girl was stillborn in May and seeing all the pretty dresses and things she will never wear hurts. It is very heartbreaking, I will be praying for peace for you.
I have been reading your blog for awhile now, and I am just so glad for you that Jackson is so beautiful and healthy!!! You are blessed with a beautiful baby boy. I know you must miss your baby girl, but she has work to do as Jackson's Guardian Angel.
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