Your questions answered part 2

When you have a new baby and its a girl.will you use Maddies old stuff? Her room? Clothes? Bedding ect
This is a tough question and I'm not sure I will have the answer until we are "there". I have gone back and forth with what to do. I think we will use her furniture and crib but buy a new mattress and wrap it of course! I know other parents that lost their baby at home and would never re use it but our story is different. I think we may use the clothes she never wore, but not the ones she did. I guess we will just put those away. As far as her car seat...she was in that the most I bet we will get another one. Other little things such as her bouncy chair... She was always in it so we will get a new one. Her jumper she hated it so we may use it. But, I don't know everything I said could change. There is no right or wrong answers with this whole process. So, I just don't know.


I know it's fresh, but have you had any hidden thoughts about when you might try for another baby?
I don't think its any secret that I want to be a mom to a baby that is on Earth. As for trying again only time will tell.

Have you been in contact with the babysitter at all? (has she tried to reach out to you, etc?)
No, we have not been contacted by her. I guess that is another part of the reason I have not talked to her. I know she has my phone number.

What would Maddie's name have been if she'd been a boy? (and will you use the boy's name for future children?)
We had picked out Blake for a boys name. I KNEW it was a girl so I James and I were not really sold on Blake. Honestly if it was a boy I would of been shocked!


Have you decided yet how you'll celebrate 1 year?
Yes, we are just going to have family over and release balloons. I dont want to do a party just something small and nice. Its going to be such a hard hard day. I'm already getting sad.

Kelly, I pray this question is not inappropriate. I love reading your blog. My question is, Has losing your sweet baby brought you and James 'closer' to God and strengthened your faith?
I have actually never been asked this before.. But, honestly James and I were MAD at God in the beginning.. I mean who wouldn't be! Our baby was taken in an instant with a warning. Now that time has gone by I am not angry. I feel like I am closer to him then I have ever been. He is taking care of my daughter you know ;)
James and I are closer now then we have ever been. I really think Maddie's death made us a better couple. A lot of marriages end because of something like this happening, and I am so thankful we are not in that statistic.

We have learned that my 3 year old son may have adhd. I was wondering if you have ever taught a kid that had it.. and what are some tips to help him learn his abc's & numbers??
Repeat, repeat, repeat, and repeat!! Honestly. It will drive you crazy but he will learn them. Also make learning them fun and try not to just do flash cards. Play basketball if he get the letter or number right he can shot a hoop. Just make it fun!!! Remember he is only 3! So his attention span is 3 minutes long. Don't make him sit there for 30 minutes ;)

How did you decide to name your daughter Madison Paige?
James and I have always liked the name Madison. It took us a while to pick out Paige but we just thought it sounded pretty.

After all the research that you have done, do you think you will do anything different when you have a rainbow baby??
Yes and No (if that makes sense). First of all we did NOTHING wrong. I have to keep telling my self that. I know we took care of Maddie the best way we knew how. I was so cautious with her. So, yes I may do things different with our next baby just because I am much more educated now.

I know you are a big planner, so when you and James hit your 5 year or 10 year anniversary how will you celebrate? Anything big???
Oh girl, I have NO idea!

What does James do for his job?
He works for my dad :) They make insulation sounds fun huh? :)
He is also a trained master BMW technician