Well guess what?
I don't want to be strong any more.
I just want to cry.
I miss Maddie.
This isn't fair!
I shouldn't be planning a balloon release. I should be picking out her outfit and ordering her smash cake.
This sucks.
I am tired of being strong.
I just want my baby back. :(
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I am so sorry for your loss:(
And you deserve to cry! You are correct it isn't fair and I am so sorry for you!! :( wish there was some way to make your wishes come true!! I am sorry Kellie!
Just remember, it's ok to break! It's ok to be sad. It sucks. It isn't fair. It will never be fair. My sweet nephew died 4.5 years ago from SIDS. He was 5 months old. Our family will never be the same. Birthdays are hard, anniversaries are hard, holidays are hard. Life is just hard and unfair. It does get easier, but it will never be easy. My brother and SIL now have 2 more precious babies. One is 3 and the other is 13 months. Having them makes the holidays easier, but not easy. We have others to live for and to celebrate...but we still celebrate Hunter.
Take maddie a piece of cake this year. Celebrate the life she lived. Celebrate the joy she gave you.
I'm so sorry you are experiencing this. No family should ever have to endure this heartache. Ever!
:( I'm sorry. Hang in there. You have every right to fell that way and cry all you want. Praying for you guys.
just because you cry doesnt make you weak, it makes you human. your entitled to whatever feelings you are feeling! sometimes you need to let it out
Kellie,
I have been following your blog for a while now. I just want you to know that I am praying for you & James. I can't imagine the pain ya'll go through, but I just wanted you to know that there are so many out there sending prayers up. I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious, beautiful angel!
Not fair one tiny little bit. No one deserves this. Take a moment to let your guard down and not be so strong. Bless your heart. Praying for peace in the coming hard week. God will get you and James through it!!
You are right, this isn't fair. I am so sorry, my heart aches for both of you. I bet Maddie will have a huge 1st birthday party in heaven and you will get to see the pictures one day. It's ok to cry Kellie, there is nothing wrong with that. We continue praying for you.
I am so, so, so sorry. :( We are thinking of you and James often and especially this week. I wish it were so very different for you.
Crying makes u feel better sometimes. I will send a balloon to Maddie. I hope she showers u in lady bugs on her birthday.
I remember the day Maddie was born because she I and I share a birthday. I was so excited to read that you had her on my birthday - it just felt special. Because of that, I will always remember her and you and James on Oct 14. Hugs to you as you celebrate her birth and I can only offer you my strength and prayers from one mom to another.
Your blog is called Another Day Stronger... be strong on another day. Don't worry about today, just get through it.
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crying doesn't indicate that you're weak. Since birth, it has always been a sign that you are alive
So, so, so, so, so, so sorry for your enormous loss -- the very worst kind of loss. I am heartbroken for you. No mother should ever have to endure what you have. You will have color in your world again one day, just hold on and let time heal your heart. So sorry, again.
Prayers and hugs for you Kellie. I know there are no words that can ease your pain but I am definitely praying for you.
Cry and cry and cry some more! It's ok to be sad! You baby girl is still your baby girl.
There are a bunch of lady bugs that are around my house in Ohio. It happens every year when the farmers are taking the corn off the fields. I thought of you and itty bitty girl in Heaven even though I don't know you.
I am so sorry for your loss. I am sending you prayers for strength & happiness for this new day. :)
You don't have to be! "My grace is sufficient for you: for my strength is made perfect in weakness"2 Corinthians 12:9....I used to say ALL the time, I don't want to be this strong, but God choose you to be her mother and has great plans for you and through her death as hard as that is to see right now. (mailing you the book this week, things have been crazy)praying for you!
You and James, and Maddie's grandparents will all remain in my constant prayers this week as you remember...
Praying for you!
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