It's going to be a hard week. I am going to have to realize it that it's not going to be fun. This birthday is not like any other. I am just going to make the best of it. I need to smile for Maddie.
This picture is on our fridge. Really we have a million pictures of Maddie on our fridge. But, I really love this one. I took it when we went to Galveston for my mother-in-law's birthday. I wrote my message to Maddiegirl BIG so she could read it from heaven. I know she can read because she is such a smart 4 month old! :)Which reminds me....I will always think of Maddie as a 4 month old. I am sure she has grown up to be a year old in heaven now but she will always be my little 4 month old Princess.
We love and miss you so much Maddiebug!
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My prayers are with you this week. Obviously, I don't know how things work out in heaven, but I believe that mothers that have lost babies, will have the opportunity to raise those babies in heaven. I like to think that when you see her again one day, that she will be that smiley four month old and you will get to experience everything then that you aren't able to now.
Our family will be praying for yall this week. I know it's always tough, but birthdays are hardest. Lots of love and prayers from Oklahoma!
I'm glad you're feeling better. You are on my mind this week, I just can't imagine how you must be feeling. I wish you all the best things in life.
What a beautiful picture! I'm sure Maddiebug LOVES getting messages in heaven. Who doesn't?! I am sure this week she is smiling down on you and James more than ever and I wouldn't be surprised if she "shows up" in random places - just look for her! It might not be the right season anymore for ladybugs but maybe a few rainbows will pop up, or happy singing birds... Maddie is all around you!!!! AND we are all thinking about you and sending love and hugs for a difficult week. Stay strong, Momma K!
Love from GA,
oxoxoxoxo
I also believe that our baby's stay the way they are. I want to believe that. I was get irritable when people say to me I saw Jayci in a dream and she was 5 and can talk. I'm like I DON"T THINK SO she is 16 months and will stay that way till I"m with her again! I hope you have a good day. Angel Mom's are always on my mind. I think of you often and pray for comfort!
Kellie,
My heart just breaks for you and James!!! Praying for you guys!!!
I am so glad that you are feeling better Kellie. I am always praying for you and James.
~Lovemylinz
Thinking of you and your Maddie in this tough time. Hugs and prayers.
I thought of you and closed my eyes,
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother,
And I know I heard him say:
A mother has a baby,
... This we know is true.
But, God, can you be a mother,
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied,
With confidence in his voice.
I give many women babies,
When they leave is not thier choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But theres no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God,
I want my baby here.
He took a breath and cleared his throat,
And then I saw a tear.
I wish that I could show you,
What your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile,
With other children who say:
We go to earth and learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My mommy set me free.
I miss my mommy oh so much,
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
"Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here."
So you see my dear sweet one,
Your children are Ok.
Your babies are here in My home,
They'll be at heavens gate for you.
So now you see what makes a mother.
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of,
Right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize you are a mother,
until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day,
And you'll know that you're the best one!
*saw this poem and thought of you & a few people I know who have lil angels in Heaven* My thoughts and prayers are w/ you and James
My prayers and thoughts are with you. I will try to release a pink balloon on Maddie's birthday!
God Bless.
Thinking of you this week Kellie and praying for both you and James. Maddie knows you love and miss her. ((hugs))
I wanted to reach out to you today because or babies share the same birthday (same year) I will be thinking about you and your sweet angel tomorrow. We will be celebrating Maddie's life and our Liam's life every October 14th every year. I always give my sweet boy extra kisses because of your story. Lots of love.
JW
I wrote a post for Maddie Bug today! Hope you enjoy it! I'm praying for you and James this week and every week!
I will be thinking of you, James, and your sweet, sweet Maddie tomorrow. She holds a special place in my heart and so do you. I'm so sorry.
I am thinking about you and James, and of course Maddie this week. I have been following your blog since you lost Maddie and this has to be one of the hardest moments I can imagine for you. Her 1st birthday..oh goodness. I am so deeply sorry and saddened by your loss. My baby is just a couple weeks younger than Maddie and I just couldn't imagine life without him. I feel guilt talking about my baby, but I am just wanting to explain how close this hits home for me and that your situation is the most unfair of them all. Just so wrong. I guess this is one of those moments where you just have to remember that God has a plan, for all of us. He has a plan for you and James. Rejoice in the knowledge that He is holding Maddie and throwing her the biggest birthday bash ever. And God loves you like He loves Maddie and will always see you through this.
It's about an hour before it's technically Friday, but just wanted to tell you I just prayed for you on this hard day, that God would give you the comfort for it to still be special. Will be thinking of you & your Maddiebug
I've been following you since the beginning of the year. Since before your nightmare started. I've never commented, though. I don't know why. I think of you three every day. I say a prayer for you all often.
Maddie's story has impacted my life in numerous ways. She has made me appreciate so many things as a mom. I should have commented and told you this before, but maybe the universe wanted me to wait until now.
My heart is so heavy for you this week. There are more prayers this week.
I want you to know that when I think of you or your blog, and when I say those prayers, I don't think I have ever used your name. I simply call you, "Maddie's Mom."
God knows I'm talking about you. That's who you are.
Somehow you will make it through this week. You will because you are Maddie's Mom.
Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us.
May you find the strength and grace to bear your heart's burden- this week and always.
<3
Hugs from Canada. It's the best I can do.
Praying for your strength! Gave you an award on my blog today!
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You don't have to publish this comment if you don't want, I just couldn't find any other way to let you know!
:)
I lost my 6 month old daughter almost 2 months ago, I honestly get sick just thinking about her 1st birthday. I read your blog, I just want you to know that it is a blessing for me to see your journey through loss. Thank you for sharing! I too will also think of my Kelsie as a sweet 6 month old baby girl.
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