It's here.
The day before.
The anticipation of tomorrow is surrounding me.
I want to go to sleep, wake up and it be Saturday.
I know that won't happen. I know that's not healthy. I HAVE to face tomorrow...and I will head on. But, I want tomorrow to be about all the happy memories of Maddie. I don't want to sit and think about the horrific day we had just a year ago. If I do I don't think I'll make it. I think about those moments all the time. But, not tomorrow. NO way!!
James and I promised each other we will not sit home all day and be sad. We are going to get out of the house and celebrate the wonderful months we had with our princess. We will still cry( I am sure) but hopefully we will cry happy tears.
We love you Maddie and tomorrow we will celebrate you and your amazing life!
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I have always loved that picture of the three of you! It really is one of my favorites of the ones you have posted. God will be carrying you and James through the next few days. He knows what you need. Hugs!
Hang in there Kelly. Just think of all the hard days you've gotten through already... you are strong, you can get through this one too. I will be thinking of you and Maddie tomorrow.
Hang in there Kelly. Just think of all the hard days you've gotten through already... you're strong, you can get through this one too. I will be thinking of you and Maddie tomorrow.
I will be thinking about you and Maddie tomorrow.
I pray that God's arms will wrap around you and James tomorrow. I know that tomorrow will be an extremely difficult day for the two of you. The Lord gives and takes away, but blessed be His name. Your sweet angel baby will be smiling down at you and her Daddy tomorrow. All I can do is pray for peace and comfort for you and and James. I cannot imagine how much your heart hurts, because I've never even met you and it breaks mine to know what you have went through.
God bless and know that your name is in my prayers. Thank you so much for sharing your journey and giving hope and inspiration to others.
I don't comment much, but I read always. Thinking of you today and tomorrow and hoping for the best celebration day possible. Cry when you need to, but laugh too. Remember yesterday, but look forward to what the future is bringing.
Praying for you<3
May you find moments tomorrow to smile, to be silly, to laugh a bit through your tears and pain. I will pray for you, James and your families.
Hang in there Kelly! I will be praying for you and your hubby all day. I will be thinking of Maddie tomorrow praying that she is OK and having the time of her life with all the other baby angels.
I will be praying for you both. I truly can't iamgine what you have been through. Try to go out and enjoy every single second of the day with each other. Go out to eat. Go to a moview. Go to her resting place. Try to breathe and get through it. God will be there t/o. I have never lost a living child so I can't imagine the pain. I have had three miscarriage and lost my mother to a horribly quick battle with a malignant brain cancer so I do know how raw that pain can feel, but in no way to I try to compare. Just know that you will have a TON of people praying for you both. Thank you for having the courage to put your story out there.
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♥ you will be in our thoughts & hearts all day tomorrow, darling. As well as sweet Maddie.
I will be thinking of you guys tomorrow, though I may not know you. February is a hard time for my sister as well and her 2 year angelversary is quickly approaching. While your life has changed dramatically over the past year, you have managed to grow as a person and carry Maddies memory with you always. Stay strong and remember she is not so far away that she can't hear you when you need her the most.
Sending hugs, strength and prayers your way xo I was thinking a cute project would be to make a little book for Jackson about his big sister. The story of Maddie. And maybe laminate it? Something he can even hold and play with when he's still a baby :)
I will definitely be praying for y'all tomorrow. :)
I will be thinking of you, your husband and Maddie tomorrow.
I am so happy to hear your attitude towards one of the hardest days of your life. Maddie is so special, an unbelievable gift to you and James. God gave you both the best privilege in the world...He trusted YOU and JAMES to care for one of His...Sweet Maddie. I know the pain and ache from missing her is ever present, and always will be there, but she spent 4 glorious months here with her loving parents and family. She had a purpose here on earth, but even though she was taken WAY too soon, she needs to be celebrated. I'm so proud of you, and James! You are both being lifted up in prayed by so many people, all around the world. God would never let you two deal with this on your own. I am praying for you both to have a wonderful day tomorrow, celebrating the life of your beautiful Angel! She is missed by many, even though we have never even met her. Praying for you always!
Kellie I can't imagine all the anxiety and feelings you are having at this momemt! I know Maddie would want you to remember her sweet little smile and all of the good memories tomorrow, but it's still okay to cry if you need to, whether it be happy tears or not! Praying for both you and James and the rest of your family as tomorrow approaches! Sending lots of hugs your way Kellie!!!
God is with you, and so is Maddie. I just read a book called Heaven is for Real, it really was a great book and talks about how much Jesus loves all children, esp the children in heaven. I hope that you are comforted in this time and that you can find some happy moments tomorrow! (((HUGS)))
Look how far you've come! I can hardly believe I've been following your blog for almost a whole year... I've read each good and bad day that you've shared. Look at all the eyes you've opened, and the prayers that have been said on your behalf - and for Maddie!
Keep the faith you guys... one foot in front of the other, and before you know it you'll be face to face with Maddie, in the presence of God and all His glory! Forevermore...
Sending hugs from across the miles and praying for extra strength and support tomorrow. If nothing else, look to all of us, your followers... to get you through.
Keeping ya'll in my thoughts and prayers!
I know I say this to you a lot but I am praying for you tonight, tomorrow, for PEACE. You celebrate your girl. She is so lucky to have parents like yall!
I will be sending up extra prayers for you and your precious family tomorrow. My daughter and I will also wear pink in honor of your beautiful angel! {HUGS}
Ginger
Praying for you guys, and know that Maddie will be watching over you tomorrow.
Celebrate her wonderful life! Think of all the joy she has brought you. I will be celebrating sweet Maddie with you.
You will be in my thoughts tomorrow like you have been all week. Spend tomorrow tell Jackson all the fun things you did with Maddie and will do with him!
A message to Maddie's mom..
You may not even see this..however, for some reason I am compelled to tell you. I am a fashion blog follower, love them, and I somehow stumbled upon your blog. I have been following your journey since last summer. When I read your story I had to continue following. I have told my family, and coworkers, all whom have young kids, about your story. Their responses are usually always the same.."how does she do it?" "how does a mother go on?". I have go to tell you that I am impressed with the way you have handled everything. Your courage and strength are amazing. For what it's worth, I will be thinking about you and your husband tomorrow. I wish you both so much happiness and healing because really you both absolutely deserve it. God bless your family.
Lots of thoughts, prayers and virtual hugs your way!! :)
-Meesh :)
Will be praying for you tomorrow! You will get through with the help of your Hubby and that sweet little boy in your belly. Love you Kellie! <3
I can't believe it has been a year. my heart still aches for you guys and my thoughts and prayers are continually with you. YOU guys are SO beyond strong, BIG HUGE hugs! xo
I love that picture especially the little rolls on her leg u can see. Sending prayers ur way that tomorrow will be filled with happy thoughts of the time u had with ur Maddie. Know U, James and Maddie are loved by many
I am sending our prayers up for you and James. I know God will be there to help you get through this day, just as he has helped you through the last 364 days. maddie is so lucky to have you as parents and she is always watching over you. Love, hugs and prayers from our family to yours!!
You are strong. You will make it through tomorrow! I will be praying for you and your husband!
Praying for you!!!!!!! You have so many people supporting you. You are far more strong than you realize. HUGS! Thinking of you all week.
Kelly I wanted you to know that I will be thinking of you today. Wanted to let you know that I will make sure that me and my baby girl AlexaRaye will wear our pink today and I'll put a big pink bow in her hair today too to honor Maddie.
Kelly you are in my thoughts. I know how hard this day is for you. Celebrate her. You will cry and you will laugh but most importantly you will continue to love her. It has been a roller coaster of a year. Every year at this time you will go through the emotions again. but in the end you are still her mom, her mom who loves her and I am sure Maddie will give you a sign today that she is still with you..
I read always but don't ever comment. But as it is your sweet baby girl's angelversary, I just want to tell you that on this Friday I am thinking about you, James, and little brother to be, Jackson. You will be in my prayers throughout today.
Abba Daddy,
Thank you so much for the 4 wonderful months that Kelly and James got to spend with Your angel, Maddie. I know today will be hard for them but I ask that You wrap Your strong and mighty arms around them and cover them in strength, peace, and the knowledge that Maddie lives on in their hearts and that no matter how many angelversaries may come and go, Maddie will always be a part of their lives in a positive way. May today be a good day for them despite the circumstances. Thank you for this amazing couple that continues to look to You for their strength. Bless them in a mighty way!
Amen.
<3 <3 <3 <3!!! Know that she's with you, no matter where you or she is! Praying extra hard for your family today.
Kellie and James... I hope that you will find comfort today in the memories of your sweet baby girl. Thinking about you both.
(((hugs)))...thinking of you all.
I have been reading your blog for a couple of weeks now, but have never commented. I found your blog through Kendra's blog. I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you, your husband and your sweet little Maddie today. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending lots of love and hugs your way!!
Happy Glory Day to your beautiful Maddie. She is soaring with the angels. You are truly blessed to have had her in your life, even though it was a short stay. I pray that the Lord gives you strength today and everyday ahead. You have such a beautiful blessed life. God is good even through the storm. Prayers for you & James!
Kelly, I'm thinking of you guys today. And praying that you can find some peace and happiness when you think of Maddie's life today. Many hugs being sent to you!
Thinking of you guys today. Make Maddie proud by being strong and remembering the little life that has made the biggest impact (in the shortest amount of time). God Bless you and your growing family! Jackson is going to be one very lucky little boy to have such loving parents and his very own guardian angel sister in heaven.
Hugs and LOTS of love from GA,
Jennifer oxoxoxoxox
Just wanted to let you know that my family and I are thinking about you today
I found your blog on another blog and I am glad I did. Your sweet baby girl...oh my she is beautiful! I am so sorry for the heartache you are enduring today. Please know that I have no idea who you are but I am praying and praying for you and your husband and your entire family today. I will pray for peace and strength to endure this life with joy. Much love,
Nicki (Elle's Mommy)
Praying for you today.
Thinking of you today. I recently went through the one year anniversary of the passing of my 2 year old daughter Olivia. It hurt to know I was moving further away from her memory. My heart truly hurts. I understand how hard this time is.
I have been praying for you. I don't know what to hope or ask for but God knows. <3
So many thoughts are with you today. Hope it was more full of the happy memories than the sad ones!
I've been thinking about you today!
Hi Kelly I have not written in quite awhile but it's Donna from California. I have bee extremely busy with family and now we share the same tragedy almost to the day. . I always thought I understood your pain. . . Now I KNOW your pain. . . After a very fragile pregnancy my niece. . .Who is like my own child I raised her from infancy. . .gave birth to a Beautiful little girl named Lily. . She was all of 2.4 pounds and 14 inches long. . .After some questionable care from the hospital staff. . . Lil Lily got too tired to fight anymore and went to sleep at 12:45 am February 16th. My heart is just broken . . .She was so perfect!!! I just want everything to STOP!!! I hate this heaviness in my heart and in my chest!!! I hate waking up each day knowing she is gone!! I hate this!!!!. . .and I LOVE her SO VERY MUCH and it is NOT FAIR THAT I CAN'T SHARE THAT LOVE WITH HER!!!! You and James SIMPLY AMAZE me with your strength!
As Always you are in my prayers and thoughts
Donna from California
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