I read this wonderful blog today, and Katie put me in my place!
The past 3 days have been HARD very hard. Madison has either been screaming or screaming louder. It hurts me to even talk about this. I cant figure out what is going on. Is she growing? Is she hurt? Is she sick? What is it?
Well last night she screamed from 2:00-4:30. Yes, and this mom was frustrated (ok very frustrated). I already mentioned I am not a very nice person when I have no sleep. Well, this morning at 4:00 am I was so upset. Madison was screaming and I was crying. I cant figure out what is wrong with her. I fed her every hour! She ate 6 ounces in 2 hours! I dont want my daughter to explode. So at 4:00 when she was screaming I fed her again. What else do I do? Gripe water only works for a few minutes.
This morning I called the doctor. I needed some advice! They told me they think she is just a "good eater". So, now instead of 4 oz. I am feeding her 5 oz. Hopefully I will have a much happier daughter today. Hopefully she will go longer then 2 hours. 5 oz every 2 hours she will explode!!!!!
Well last night she screamed from 2:00-4:30. Yes, and this mom was frustrated (ok very frustrated). I already mentioned I am not a very nice person when I have no sleep. Well, this morning at 4:00 am I was so upset. Madison was screaming and I was crying. I cant figure out what is wrong with her. I fed her every hour! She ate 6 ounces in 2 hours! I dont want my daughter to explode. So at 4:00 when she was screaming I fed her again. What else do I do? Gripe water only works for a few minutes.
This morning I called the doctor. I needed some advice! They told me they think she is just a "good eater". So, now instead of 4 oz. I am feeding her 5 oz. Hopefully I will have a much happier daughter today. Hopefully she will go longer then 2 hours. 5 oz every 2 hours she will explode!!!!!
(ok..so back to Katies blog putting me in my place)
I prayed and prayed for Madison for over 1o months. After many failed months of trying to conceive and a scheduled trip to the fertility clinic I found out I was pregnant. I did have a hard pregnancy and labor but I was so excited. Excited to have a little Princess to spoil and love. I guess, It's hard adjusting to the sleepless nights. I have many friends who are still having a hard time trying to conceive. So, I need to remember Madison is a blessing. She is here to make me stronger. She is mine. The one I prayed for. The one I LOVE!
Like Katie said.. I have earned many mom badges...Some which include:
- Taking blood thinner shots daily throughout my pregnancy and now. I have 10 more shots!!
-Giving birth naturally with NO drugs!
-Getting up nightly to my princess screaming and walking the halls of our house trying to calm and sooth her, patting her back, rubbing her belly, singing, and rocking her.
- Cooking dinner while trying to feed her.
-Trying to breast feed for 10 days with no milk and a crying baby :)
So I am strong.. I can do this!
So I am now in my place. Madison I love you. I would do anything for you! You are my everything. Tonight when I wake up to feed her I will say "Thank you Lord for my Princess!!"
I will leave you with pictures of my Princess in her first 0-3 month onesie!
3 comments:
This made me cry. I will pray for the both of you and this difficult spurt you are going through. You are a great mother - don't forget that. :)
This was a touching post Kel. Hope things get better for you guys. You are doing a great job and Madison is as lucky to have you as you are to have her. :hugs:
reading back in your blog and saw this ;) you are an amazing momma to your precious princess. Prayers are with you, hun.
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