Sinking..

Yesterday I was at work all day so I was unable to get a video blog together. I feel like I am slacking on them and I'm sorry.

I only have 1 more week of summer then it's back to work. I really have had NO energy to do anything lately. I guess that's why I haven't blogged.

I have been missing Maddie so much recently I can hardly breathe. Everywhere I go I see something and it reminds me that she is gone. Its either something I see or something I hear or something that is being discussed! Maybe its because we are coming up on her 6 month angelversary. 6 months...really.. UG.. I want to throw up now that I have typed those words. It still hurts just as bad as the day we got the "news". I thought I was doing better but I guess I am stuck in one of those tornado's again.

This weekend James and I are going to go see Maddie's head stone. I am glad we didn't go the other weekend because the funeral home called and said when they laid out her marker the first time the granite broke. They told us they will re order her granite but it will take 2 weeks. Right now her head stone is there but on the wrong piece of granite for now. I cant even imagine if we went and I saw her granite broke. I would of totally lost it. Please pray for us. When we go this time it is going to be so hard. I am petrified. But, we need to go for Maddie to make sure her spot is beautiful!