I wont.
I had to.
I waited to the very last minute because this isn't real. It's still a dream. When can I wake up??
But, Today was the last minute. It took 6 hours to find this dress. A dress (2 dresses) I probably will never wear again.
I have to wear pink. Maddie loves pink.
Today was ok though. It wasn't easy but it was ok. I was fine until I went to Target and had to go by the baby section. Then I walked by a lady with a car seat and another couple who were talking about their babies in ICU and I lost it. I cant do this. It isn't real...but I have to. It's for Maddie. My princess.
After we got home we had another hard task to do.. pick music. How do you pick music to play at your daughters funeral? You can't. I didn't want to. This isn't real. We picked 2 songs. I just couldn't pick 3. Here is one we picked...
Tomorrow is going to be hard. I just keep telling myself we get to see Maddie just to get me through it. She is so beautiful. She is a Princess.
Look at her. I miss her so much!Please pray for our strength tomorrow. I know Maddie will be there to help us get through this. But, it's going to be so hard.
Maddie loves big bows. She always wore them. We would be honored if on Wednesday 2/23/11, in remembrance of Maddie, you would put a big bow on your daughters. We would also love to get pictures. kellieshsu06@yahoo.com Thanks so much!
Maddie loves big bows. She always wore them. We would be honored if on Wednesday 2/23/11, in remembrance of Maddie, you would put a big bow on your daughters. We would also love to get pictures. kellieshsu06@yahoo.com Thanks so much!
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Thinking of you. ((HUGS))
My goodness I cannot imagine. My heart absolutely breaks for you. My prayers are with you. I know that cannot begin to help... so sorry for your loss.
What a great song, I've listened to this song a few times since our precious River passed away and it is so true. Another song that you will find wonderful is Rocket Club's One More Day, that is exactly what we all want just one more day...every day!! It makes me cry every time I hear it, but the words are so true. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
I cry every time I come to your blog. My heart hurts so bad for you. You have amazing strength and I pray for you everyday...multiple times a day.
I don't have a little girl, but I will wear a bow for you and her.
I'm so sorry. I'll be thinking of you and praying.
praying for you this week and the weeks beyond. I can't even put into words how sorry I am for your loss.
You are so incredibly strong. I will keep your family in my prayers. The loss you suffered is so tragic and your daughter was gorgeous. I will wear pink in her honor on Wednesday.
most definitely praying for your strength. i will be thinking about you and your precious Maddie all day tomorrow.
I stumbled across your blog through a friends blog. I am praying for you all the way in Idaho. I cannot imagine the pain you and your family are feeling. I pray that God blesses you with peace and a renewed spirit in this difficult time.
Praying for you! I know God will give you strength when you need it most . . .but allow you tears to cry when you need it too. Hang in there honey! You are loved by many and prayed for by the minute!
I'm thinking about you all the time Kellie. You are so strong. I'm so so sorry.
There is nothing that can possibly be said except I'm so so sorry for your loss. She was beautiful and her memory will forever live on through you. Praying for you family. I pray God wraps himself around all of you in this hard time.
I am so sorry for your loss just sitting here reading this I am sobbing. I am so sorry for you.
I will wear pink in honor of your precious daughter. Praying for you and your family.
I just came across your blog, from "From Mrs to Mama" I am so sincerely sorry for you. I balled, like crazy. I am just a girl, who has no kids, and I can not even imagine what you are going through. I can not believe that happened to you. My prayers and thoughts are with you.! You and your husband are such strong individuals. Keep strong.!
Summer will be honored to wear a bow on Wednesday to remember Maddie. She has been praying for you every night and asks to see pictures of Maddie. We love you guys!
I have been thinking about you and your family so much these past few days. And tears are just always streaming down my face. When you asked us to put a bow on our babies tomorrow, i just broke down. It will be the first thing I do tomorrow, and you will most definitely be getting a picture. I wish I could give you a hug right now. I know you don't know me, but your story has really touched my heart. Will continue praying for you and your princess.
By the way... i'm going to blog about this post, if that is okay, asking all my readers the request you just made about the bows and i was wondering if you could send the email address that you would like people to send pictures to.
again. i am so so sorry for your loss.
Oh that last song is perfect. Your story breaks my heart. I don't have children but I will put a big bow on my puppy daughter for Maddie. Hugs.
Thinking of you all and praying so hard for you.
I am so sorry... My heart is aching for you. Many, many prayers.
Praying for strength and for God to wrap his arms around you.
Will be thinking of you all tomorrow!!! Sending love and my thoughts your way.
Rory will be wearing the biggest bow in her collection on the 23rd. Maddi is GORGEOUS and you and your husband are amazing. I am praying constantly for your strength, peace of mind and rest. Blog on, friend. We'll all be here, reading and supporting you.
I don't know you. You don't know me. My cousin Sara Rogers posted your story on FB and her mother posted the link to your blog. With that being said, my heart goes out to you both. You are in my prayers. What a terrible thing to happen. I pray for peace for you both.
We would be so honored to have Bella wear a big bow just like Maddie did. Still praying for you guys.
Oh my goodness, I am so incredibly sorry. I can't even begin to understand your pain. I am so sorry.
i am here from a post on another blog, my life after loss. i am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet little maddie. your words about selecting a grave and casket bring back so many memories of losing my own babies, and i wish no other parents ever had to go through that. i would be honoroed to have my daughter wear a bow on wednesday for maddie.
I'm sharing this post, as long as you don't mind, on my blog. I want to send you as many prayers and virtual hugs as possible.
praying for your family....
and i will be putting big bows on my little girls! our loss is not the same (and not to be compared) but i've lost two little boys myself.
be gentle with yourself. you will be on my heart tomorrow....
Picking out my dress for our daughter's funeral was probably one of the absolute worst days of my life! I remember walking around the department store with an arm full of dark dresses, and every freaking sales woman kept asking me "what are you shopping for!?", or saying, "Oohh you must be shopping for something formal!". I just wantd to tell all of them to STFU and leave me the hell alone! I totally feel your pain here.
Also, that rocket club song is one of my very favorites. a friend e-mailed it to me a few months after we lost Olivia and the words are just so perfect. I also love "Homesick" by Mercy Me.
If music is something that helps you (it helps me greatly), facesofloss.org has a whole list of infant/baby loss songs.
I know we don't know each other, but if you ever feel like you would like to talk to someone that at least kind of "gets it" (I know that our stories are very different), please don't hesitate to drop by my blog and leave a comment or send me an e-mail. betsy.hills@yahoo.com
You continue to amaze me. I can't imagine doing all the things you have had to do and I know sweet Maddie is holding you and James up right now. Praying for strength, comfort, and peace.
My heart is breaking for y'all... I'll be praying tomorrow. And the little will be rocking her big bow for Maddie.
Oh bless your heart...I will put the biggest bow we own on my daughter on Wednesday in honor of Maddie! Prayers for you...
Kellie, you have a tremendous amount of love and support during this time. I continue to think of and pray for your family daily. Molly and I will both be wearing a bow/flower in our hair on Wednesday in honor of sweet Maddie.
I've been thinking a lot about you and your family since reading about your loss, my heart breaking a little more for you with every post. I just cannot imagine.
I will certainly help to spread the word about the bows, and, while I don't have kids, I'll wear a bow and put one on my bag that I carry at school all day for you and your sweet Maddie.
In absolute awe of your strength, and praying that you can find more somewhere.
What an impossible thing to be going through. I'm glad that you are drawing strength from your resolve to do what you need to do for Maddie. You are a wonderful mother, Kellie. So much love and many prayers.
I started bawling while I was reading your latest posts, I can't contemplate what you're going through right now. You're in my thoughts.
We all love you and Maddie. You are such a brave and amazing woman. I still will continue to pray for you and your family. God Bless. Sachamom (TMP)
I just found your blog today and have never met you, but I am sooo sorry to hear of your tragic news. Praying for you and your family.
Praying for Gods hands to be wrapped tightly around you tomorrow and for you to feel Maddie's sweet prescence..
I can't even imagine. I will find the biggest bow I can for Miss Emma.
I got a link to your blog from Tara at our journey... I am so very sorry for your loss.
I will put my little girl in a flower or bow tomorrow for your little Maddie.
You are in our prayers.
Kellie - Although I can't be there physically my family and I are there with you. Maddie has touched so many lives across the world and my daughter and I will wear bows on Wednesday and think of Maddie. My thoughts and prayers have been with you non stop and will continue to be.
beautiful songs you picked.
Those songs are just perfect. I am constantly in awe of your strength through all of this. I know you might not think your being strong but you are. I think of you each day and continue to pray for you and your family. Tomorrow will be the hardest day for you. I will be praying for God to give you the strength to make it through. Maddie will indeed be there to watch over you.
I do not have a daughter, but I will wear a bow in my hair tomorrow. Again my family continues to pray for you each day.
I came across your blog yesterday through another blog & immediately I was brought to tears for you & your family. I continued to think about you all day & pray about your family, including Maddie all night, whenever I was still. I can't begin to imagine the pain you are feeling right now but I pray that God will give you strength and that you will continue to feel peace in knowing that Maddie is in heaven with God & that he will protect her. I will be putting the biggest bow that I can find on Kennedy tomorrow.
We may not know eachother but your story has touched my heart in such a deep way & please know that you and your family are on my mind and in my prayers.
I'm a friend of Catherine's from high school. I'm so deeply sorry and my heart is so sad for you and your family. It has to hurt deeply, but how comforting it is to know though your princess is sitting at the right hand of our Lord and Saviour, the Almighty God, singing with the angels forever and ever. "The Lord gives strength to his people. The Lord blesses his people with peace." Psalm 22:11
I have twin girls (2) that will DEFINITELY be wearing BIG 'OLE bows in honer of Maddie on Wednesday! She's beautiful. Praying for you all. You're constantly on my heart and mind since I heard your news.
My heart breaks for you and your family! I have tears streaming down my face! I have been thinking and praying for you since I heard about your story yesterday from Becky from Mrs. to Mama! I will for sure put a gimongous bow on my little girl tommorrow in honor of your Maddie. Would you mind if I blogged about this to let people know to put a bow on their daughters tommorrow in honor of your daughter Maddie Let me know my email is radfords1@frontier.com and let me know where you would like people to send the pictures to
My heart aches and breaks for you
Summer
I found your story on FB. It broke my heart. I am also the owner of Precious Petals Boutique (you can find me at my .com and on facebook), and we do some amazingly big hair bows! I've put out a call to all PPB fans and to all my fellow bow designers to remember Maddie tomorrow.
I just wanted you to know... the bow community is reaching out! We are honoring Maddie with her own "Big Bow for Maddie Day" on February 23, 2011.
I'm praying for you and your husband. May you both draw together during the most difficult time in your lives.
I have been thinking of you every day and each picture I see of your beautiful little girl, I cry for you and for anyone else who has ever lost their child, at any age. That is never easy but to lose a baby who is so young is just heart-breaking. I am continuing to send my love and prayers and my family has asked God each day to hold Maddie close to his heart and lift her up to let her beautiful light shine.
Thinking of you every day. Your strength is so amazing. Everytime I visit your blog... I cry. I'm so sorry for you and your husband and everyone that that precious little girl touched.
My daughter doesn't own any bows, but we will find some way to honor your beautiful daughter and your family.
Everyone at TMP is so sorry for your loss. Stay strong.
I just found your blog through Sprogbloggers page and I know it doesn't mean much but I am so so sorry for your loss. I am praying for you and you husband and your precious Maddie. Tomorrow I will put a big bow in my daughter's hair and I will remember your princess and I will pray....
Just came across your blog today and I am so, so, so sorry for you and your family right now. Your little girl was beautiful and she is even prettier singing and dancing with Jesus in Heaven right now. I will be praying for you and your family in the coming days. Hopefully you can feel all the prayers being lifted up!
I don't have a daughter, but if I did you can sure bet she would have a big beautiful bow on for you and your little girls memory!
Praying for you and your family and your sweet angel Maddie. We will wear lots of big bows for Maddie tomorrow.
My heart goes out to you and your family. My daughter and I both will be wearing a bow tomorrow. As will everyone I have passed the word onto. Hugs and prayers from me in IL.
Found you via Michele @ My Life after Loss. My heart is completely broken for you and your husband. I can't even imagine. In honor of your beautiful Maddie, I will definitely put the biggest bow on my little great-niece. I am so sorry. Many, many prayer going up for you.
I will definitely make sure Peyton wears a flower tomorrow in memory of your precious angel. Thinking and praying for you and your family
found you through Amy @ miracle in the making- praying for you and thinking of you since I heard your story- we will be rocking pink and big bows in honor of your maddie tomorrow.
I am so sad for you. I am crying as I read this, thinking I could never be as strong as you are. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Your little Maddie is a Beautiful Angel. I will definitely put my girls in bows tomorrow in memory of Maddie.
I am SO SORRY for your loss.... Your little girl is beautiful. You are a VERY STRONG Woman to go through this!!! Being a Mom myself, I can't imagine the IMMENSE PAIN you are going through right now. No Amount of Im sorrys or thoughts and prayers will take away the pain but maybe ease it little by little for you. Your family is in my thoughts.
My girls will be wearing extra big bows for her. 5 year old Madison and 8 month old Mylee. sending love to youl
My girls will will wear bows for your precious baby tomorrow. I am so sorry for what you are experiencing. 6 years ago I, too, had the daunting task of selecting a dress to wear to my twin daughter's funeral. I know what you mean about the small casket, I know what you mean about not caring how you look, I know what you mean about seeing her things all around the house. No mother should EVER have to bury their baby. I will be thinking of you often and praying for peace and comfort. I know you have a huge support system, but please feel free to contact me if you ever need to speak with someone who has walked a similar path in life.
Erin ( Mommy to identical twin angels, Adelide and Belle)
My heart cries with you... I walked in your shoes 28 years ago... I pray that one day you will find meaning and purpose in what is meaningless and senseless today... I have found that meaning and it has brought me peace. You have a beautiful daughter - carry her in your heart forever.
I have been thinking about you and your family so much! Tears are just always streaming down my face. My prayer are with you and your husband. The songs you picked are beautiful. So sorry for your lost.
my 12 year old daughter will have BIG bow in her hair for Maddie tomorrow
my Katy will be wearing a big bow for Maddie
Praying for you and your family. I am sitting here bawling reading your posts. I am grieving with you and pray that you will feel the surpassing peace that is only found through God.
I WILL be thinking of you and praying for you in the days ahead.
With Love,
Jess (Charleton,SC)
I will put Alina in a big bow tomorrow in remembrance of Maddie. Prayers go out to your family...Thinking of you. I just can not imagine what you must be going through.
sorry i accidently was logged into my husbands account...but
I will put Alina in a big bow tomorrow in remembrance of Maddie. Prayers go out to your family...Thinking of you. I just can not imagine what you must be going through.
i am so sorry i started to cry when i was reading this. My daughter will wear a bow tomorrow for your princess.
Extremely sorry for your loss. My heart aches and my eyes cry for you and your husband.I am praying for you and you can bet my daughters will be showing love for Maddie in their bows tomorrow.
I am so sorry for your loss. You dont know my but I came across your blog via some fb friends. I have a 6.5months old daughter, and I cant imagine..everytime I even think of it I loose it all together. my princess will most definatly be wearing a bow in honor of your baby girl. May you and your husband have strength today, and the many days to come going on without her in your arms. I am so so very sorry. I'll be praying for you and your family, for comfort, peace and strength.
My heart is broken for you. I cannot imagine what pain and anguish you must be going through right now. Your Maddie is beautiful and will forever be! Hold onto your memories, she is with you always. I have a Maddie of my own. She will be wearing the biggest bow I can make today. I am so incredibly sorry and heartbroken over your loss. May God bring you the peace beyond all understand and may you know that God wanted Maddie in Heaven with Him. She must be a very special little girl! You'll see her someday, and until then, she'll watch over you and your husband. Much love and strength to you and yours.
This blog was written on my daughters first birthday, I am so sorry for your loss and I know nothing I can say can make it any easier, My thoughts and prayers are with you always, My little girl with be wearing a big pink bow today just for Maddie!! <3 I send you all the love and strength I have in me <3
I know that people have said they are sorry over and over again for your loss...And I know that sorry could not replace the whole in you and your families heart. It is horrible the pain you are going through and my heart feels your pain. We bless you for having the courage to post your story for us to read. We want you to know you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. And we are sending pictures in remembrance of Maddie.
With Love,
The Bridges Family
Kevin, Felica, & Elizabella
Goodness! I'm SO sorry for your loss, I have 3 babies of my own, and What you are living is my greatest fear, I want to tell you I think you are AMAZING for writing all this down like you have.Although I'm sure its very difficult for you, not only will this help you but you have to know you are helping and inspiring so many that may be in the same or similar situations as you!So Today in honor of your little baby My girls will wear their big bows! and from now on every time they do where them I will consider them "lucky"charms and a sign that Maddie is watching over all the little kids!
Today my Izzy is wearing a bow for little Maddie. Your story touched me and I am sending all of our love and thoughts your way. I tried to send a pic but it wouldn't let me. I posted one in the facebook group of izzy wearing a bow for maddie, its pink which you said maddie loved.
My thoughts and prayers are going toward you and your family. I do not have children of my own, but my heart truly breaks after reading your story. Today I am wearing a bow (something that I never do) in remembrance of little Maddie.
O my goodness, I dont know your family, but you are in my prayers. I started crying as I was reading your blog. I have an 8 month old daughter and I couldnt imagine going through what you and your family are. I will wear the biggest bow I have on my daughter today, in Maddie's honor. Im so sorry for your loss.<3
You an Your Family are in my prayer's I'm so sorry for your lost and I know you don't have a clue who I am but I want you to know If you need someone to talk to scream at or just have someone listen I will be here for you an your family email anytime day or night christeenzarcone@aol.com again I'm truly sorry for your loss an My heart goes out to you an your Family
I'm so sorry for all you're going through. Sending many thoughts and prayers to you and your family. My heart is breaking for you.
I just read this and my heart goes out to you. My daughter never wears headbands, but strangely, today she grabbed a headband with a bow on it to wear today...that was 3 hours before I read this story....
I am so sorry for what you are going through. In 1999, my nephew was born. I was in the OR during the C-Section. I watched him take his first breath....15 months later (after being diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder) I watched him take his last breath in my mom's arms. Writing email updates all through his illness and after his passing helped me through that horrible time. Just know that your beautiful princess in now "In The Arms of an Angel" (my Anthony's favorite song...the only song that soothed him through his pain)...and she is in great company in Heaven.
~Angela Randall
Praying for you. I don't know how you have been so strong, there is only one person to thank for all of that strength. Thank you God for sending your protection to this family. I will be praying for you and your family. The feelings you are going through, they are not something that everyone can understand. But take refuge in knowing that God gave us his son. Jesus has felt everything we have and has went through everything we do; he took on all of our sins and pain. He is there to hold you up while you are week. Call on His name and He will guide you through. I just want to say I Love you. I don't know you but I want you to know that people out here love you. I will continue to pray for you.
i could not imagine what you are going through. you are a very strong person for even doing this blog.i have 2 boys and couldnt imagine a day without them.thoughts and prayers are with you and if i had a little girl she would be wearing a bow in her hair today.
My heart goes out to you and your family. I have a little girl myself and I can't imagine what it would be like not to have her here with us. You and your family are in my prayers and I hope you can find peace. In honor of your precious baby girl I have put a large bow on my daughter and if she keeps it in long enough to take a picture I will send it to.
I have no words of wisdom, only if a complete stranger could take away your pain, I would. Losing a child is something NO parent should ever have to go through. My prayers are with you as you go to sleep each night and wake up each day. That is the only way you will get through this for a long time. You just wake up, go through the day and go to bed. Maddie has brought you peace, hold that in your heart.
I will be putting the biggest bow Abby owns on her today, in rememberance of your beautiful angel.
I found your blog through a friend and I must say, I'm at a loss of words... Its become "standard mannerism" of the human kind to say things like: "Be strong, hang in there, sorry for your loss" But as a mother, I can only imagine the pain you're in and those words are just simply NOT enough. We are total strangers, but my heart breaks for you.I pray that you find the comfort and healing you need to keep moving forward. May you have a blessed life today and always.
Hi, you do not know me. My name is Amanda. I found your blog and your story through a friend, Stacy on facebook. I was very moved by your story and am sending prayers for your strength through this unthinkable time. I wanted to share this with you...
Today is Wednesday, February 23. My daughter, Zoey is 18 months old and has never really worn bows. She would always pull anything I put on her head off. However, we own one big bow that a friend got her for Christmas last year. Today, out of no where, she finds this bow and insists on wearing it. A few hours later is when I found your story. This touched me in a way I cannot express. Sure it could just be coincidence, but I don't think so. God has a plan for all of us and I think it was He that showed Zoey that bow in remembrance of Maddie.
May God be with you. Blessed Be.
Amanda
i don't know you or your family, but my thoughts and prayers are with all of you. i cried when i read your blog. i cant imagine the pain your in. my little girl will wear a big bow today for you and your princess
I wanted to let you know that I linked your blog to mine...
http://talesfromamother.blogspot.com/2011/02/in-memory-of-maddie.html
Your story has moved me and I wanted to share it.
I am sorry for the loss of your sweet baby.
I am so very, truly sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine losing a child of my own. You are in my thoughts and prayers. You are very strong, I can see it in your words. Just know that you are in many people's prayers. They say God wouldn't put us through anything that we couldn't handle...but I'm sure you wish He didn't trust you so much. Miss Maddie was put here for a reason. I know she changed you and your husband's life...as well as the extended family, and, well, anyone who knew her. This is a tragic loss but I know she is smiling down on you now...You are in my thoughts and prayers. I pray that you can stay strong. God bless.
Putting Bows on my girls today for you and Maddie. Praying for you this morning. You don't know us but we will be joining many others as we lift you and your family up today!
this is so difficult to read. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. A week Friday I am getting induced and I can't help but cry my eyes out thinking about you going through everything I have gone through, all your love for your daughter. You are a strong woman. Your daughter did have a purpose and I pray she is the light to bring you through this incredibly difficult and emotional time. Let those around you who love and support you be your pillar of strength. Allow yourself to cry and lean on your pillars. With Love, Amanda- Hamilton, Ontario, Canada.
Praying for you, your husband and your family. I can not even begin to imagine the pain you feel. I have three children, my youngest being a little girl we call Maddie who is 7 months old. I want to say Thank You for sharing your story. Day in and day out, people take forgranted the blessing they have, and I was one of them. With that, I will certainly be placing the biggest bow I have on my daughter today.
I stumbled on your blog from another and am absolutely heart-broken for you and your family. Reading this post brought back so vividly how I felt as I prepared to bury my firstborn identical twin girls. I understand every word from not wanting to pick a dress, to not wanting to enter the nursery and have to face seeing all of the baby tings, to asking "why me?" I asked that question for a long time, and still do...I know your heart aches more now than you could have ever imagined it could. Find peace and comfort in knowing she was/is a perfect Angel. My two living girls will be wearing the biggest bows for your little Maddie today. What an inspiration you are to me...
I am sending you all the strength I have to get through this difficult time, and will be praying for you often. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. My daughter has a big pink bow on for your Maddie.
Praying for you and your husband. I don't have any kids but my 10 year old sister wore a big black and white pok-a-dot headband with a bow today and I'm thinking of your baby girl.
we bought a bow in honor of Maddie! i picked the biggest one i could find. :) i e-mailed you the pic, and hope you got it!
i am thinking of you, and sharing your story.
I have never lost a child, came very close, but close doesnt count. I was one of the lucky ones. I really dont know what to say to you. I cant say that it will heal in time, or everything happens for a reason. I can say from your story you and your husband sound like WONDERFUL PARENTS. I only could hope that more children have love for them like you have for your daughter. She is BE U T FUL!!! You are in my thoughts and prayers.
she is a BEAUTIFUL angel!! i can't relate to this situation, but i have friends that can. also my daughter was in NICU fighting for her life, right after she was born!! my thoughts & prayers got out to you & your family, i have prayed several times today for you guys!!
I can't even fathom what you're going through & want to say I am extremely sorry for your loss!! & I didn't have the money to go purchase a huge bow, but I had some ribbon so I made bows instead and they weren't big I tried, but failed. I took photos of me n my babygirl wearing our bows. I figured I should wear one too since I too am a daughter. Once again I'm sorry for your loss!!!!
your song choices are so beautiful. probably the one of the hardest choices a parent should ever have to make. god bless you both and your little princess.
Thank you soooo much for posting this blog. I came across it, from a friend & just couldn't stop thinking of you & your family. I've been blessed with 2 little girls. One is 2 & the other is 2 months. I pray that the lord continues to give you the strength you need to get through this hard time. Tears still roll down my face as I write this. Know that you've made a difference in many lives.
I have tried to email and can not :(
I cannot imagine the pain that you are going through right now. I am thinking of you and praying for you over these next few weeks and months!
You should really contact Heather Spohr at thespohrsaremultiplying.com.
I know all too well how you feel and what you have gone thru. I had to let go of my 6 year old daughter much the same way. She had a hard life. From the age of 6 months her life was a parade of doctors and hospital trips, medications and needles. But she was stronger than any adult I had ever seen. No matter how hard it was for her, she never stopped playing. She taught me that nothing is impossible and if you want something bad enough, you have to work for it. My daughter has been gone for 13 years and this may would have been her 19th birthday. You never forget, and you dont want to. It gets both easier and harder. Her older brother still misses her. He has a son of hs own now and is vveerryy protective of him. He doesn't want anyone else to care for him but he and his wife. I wish I could say something, anything to help but your already doing the best thing possible.
May God bless you abundantly with His love. I understand your pain. In the summer of 2009 my daughter miscarried her baby that she wanted so very much. One day while sitting at my computer the sun streaming in the window my pain was very great for both my daughter and my lost grandchild. So I wrote this poem and would like to share it with you.
Titled My Grandbaby
My grandbaby, what a wonderful thought.
I looked and I looked, I sought and I sought,
But my grandbaby was no where to be found.
Then from far off I heard a sound,
The birds were singing all around.
Can it be true such a peaceful day?
While our baby nowhere lays?
The tears I shed freely flow as the sun casts a brilliant glow.
How can this be? Such a beautiful day and so much pain inside of me.
Our grandbaby was just a spark,
But he/she went home when the Lord said “Hark”
“Come unto me thy little one”.
Our pain is still here
But I know our baby is well loved up there.
Things we may never see, little toes and fingers of thee.
The hair and the eyes we can not perceive.
But the gift of love we’ll always receive.
For you see love knows no boundary
Heaven or Earth our love will carry
To our baby whom one day we will see.
We’ll hear the birds and see the sun and celebrate with thee.
Praying that the God who holds your precious Maddie in His arms continues to hold the two of you. You were so blessed to have her -- she is beautiful, precious princess
May the God who eternally holds your precious Maddie continue to hold both of you in His loving arms. You were so blessed to have her -- she is a beautiful, precious princess.
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